Unleash your FEAR !

I have developed an extraordinary interest lately, totally beyond my expectation. For your info, I used to be a shy and quiet person and singing was my number one fear..why? coz my voice is quite limited. I was labeled as a soft spoken person with a husky voice..I can’t scream and raise up my voice..its all due to my past surgery failures.

Let me share with you an unforgettable incident that happened 10 years ago. To be frank, I lost my voice due to a surgery failure. I had an abnormal growth on my neck and suspected to be thyroid, I had undergone two surgeries with two different doctors. The first surgery was during my 2^nd year in University, I still could recalled clearly, my condition was worst until, I have been exempted from presentation. For those who know me before my uni time, they will definitely asked me..:”joe, are you sick..why your voice like that..?”

Over the past 10 years, I have been receiving the same comments about my limited voice. I faced problem especially in delivering presentation and convincing others. Of course singing was a big challenge for me. But now, my limitation is not an issue anymore….:) Believe it or not, times had changed everything, for the past few months, I have managed to unleash my fear. My weekend and holidays were spent having great and fun moments in karaoke lounge. Haha..:) But still I am not a good singer…yet..hehe..:) Most importantly, what matters most now is I have unleashed my fear..fear of singing…J

Appreciate the moments…..:)

There is only one moment to appreciate in life and that is the present moment. 


Often in our life, we focus our awareness into our regretful past and uncertain future. We know that the future is a dream not yet alive and the past is memory without a pulse. But, why are our minds often somewhere else? How can we stay fully present when we want to? Do you know that being fully present can make our experiences more positive and memorable?

Sometimes, we even try to divide our attention, to do 2-3 things in the same time, however when we divide our attention we cheapen our experience of life. And sometimes we're not even aware we're doing it. As for me, it’s a norm to do 2-3 tasks in one shot, talking to the phone while replying an urgent email and sometimes I have offended the person I’m talking to because I’m not focused.

When walking outdoor, we often focus on the near and familiar, and never notice the distant beauty of a hawk wheeling right above us. In our daily life, we always dramatize our problem without appreciating what we have in present. We often blame God for all the problems happened in our life but seldom appreciated every breath that we inhale is given by our almighty God. And these are relatively harmless examples. Sometimes it hurts much more.

Whatever the moment, you're in it. Appreciating the moment begins with appreciating yourself. And appreciating yourself begins with your own breathing.

When You Almost Reach The finish Lines…

I have been struggling very hard for the past few years just to make sure that I will reach the finish lines. However, when I almost reach there, something bad struck me..things did not happen as I have planned. Can you imagine how sad and frustrated I was? That’s life huh?? Expect the worst!!

Well, I always say to myself that it’s not the end of the world, there is always a flickering light at the end of the tunnel, the only question is how far is the end of the tunnel ? This is the quote that I love most, it’s a copy and paste quote that I learned from my hubby, I was impressed with this quote may be this is the reason why I’m stuck with him now..hehe..:)

Sometimes, I am wondering why these things happened to me? Why people treat me badly? Have I done something wrong that I deserved to face all these? or May be God is testing my patience. God I never treat other people bad. I tried to be nice to other people as what God has taught me but why me Lord??

As human, we always asked God Why me? Why me? Why I’m the chosen one ? I’m trying to be positive but sometimes, the pain is unbearable. Have you ever felt that your chest hurt and your couldn’t hear your heart beating. That’s how I felt lately, crazy huh?

Despite all the difficulties that I faced, I should be grateful that I am surrounded with my loved ones especially my hubby. My husband has been a supportive listener and I really thanked him for being there for me. Well, after all I still need to pick myself up, dust myself off and Start all over again.

September:)

Time flies..we are in the 3rd quarter of the year. It's September!! I luv September because September is my luckiest month..hehe...:) Why ?? i got my annual bonus payout in Sept and i am celebrating my wedding anniversary in September...everything turn out to be perfect in september..:)(Finger cross)

However, as a Roman Catholic believer, God said that everyday is a good day and we are not supposed to deny this because it is stated in the book of Genesis, God begins his six day work-week and created the world and everything in it including mankind. The one thing that every day had in common was the fact that after God had finished his work beginning with day one and ending with day six, He said, And it was good.” God set a precedent that “Every day is a good day.” On the 7th day God rested, and that was good also.

A lot of people including myself go around and saying all the time, “I had a bad day!”, "blue monday" Through experiences i'm beginning to see the world from the other side of the coin and I’m learning more and more to exclaim, “Every day is good.” Even in pain, I’m learning that today is still a good day because I believe today that my pain or suffering will be less tomorrow. During the past few months, i have been through a life turbulence .. especially in my career path and academic life. Life is not always a bed of roses ! Sometimes, it becomes difficult to analyze whether all that happened to me was fair or not. Did I deserve all that I got? Who said life was going to be fair? One of the mistakes many of us make is that we feel sorry for ourselves, or for others, thinking that life should be fair, or someday it will be. It's not and it won't. Surrendering to this fact also keeps us from feeling sorry for others. It reminded me that everyone is dealt with differently, everyone has unique strengths and challenges.

Remember, “In the Lord, every day is a good day!”